I’m not ready.
I’m not ready for summer to end, not ready for the end of the color green outside, not ready for the smell of wet leaves on the ground, not ready for the end of days of swimming, not ready to feel sick from being outside, not ready to just watch from the window, not ready for an end of biking to work, not ready for the cold, not ready for dark mornings, not ready for deck nights and patio nights to be over. I’m not ready for fall.
It has been a long week already. Not really in a bad way. There has been planning and parties and days at the beach with my bestie which have been so great! But today I am tired. I try not to say much about the heat or the weather. I know I have it pretty good – I have power and AC at home, I do a lot of work in art centers that have AC, my studio is quite cold being in the basement of a house with AC, and after years of working in a restaurant kitchen I am pretty heat tolerant. But I will admit that the heat is not helping me feel my best and have tons of energy now.
I did manage to get a bit of work done today for MCBA. We had our monthly co-op meeting, and my sweet co-op friends brought cup cakes and cookies to the meeting for my birthday! I do adore those people.
I had a moment of panic this morning. I have known for a long time what would be my first ‘30 Project‘ post. But today is day two, and I realized I had no idea what my photo would be of. After a second cup of coffee I managed to calm myself down, and remind myself that this is what the project is about. I don’t have every day planned out and know right away what I am going to photograph. This project is not meant to be planned. It is meant to be spontaneous, with a deliberate finished look (meaning how I put the photos in my journal). So I packed my camera in my bag, and brought it with me. Sometime during picking raspberries at my parent’s house I knew what today’s photo needed to be.
(Note: Yes, I realize that I mis-spelled ‘raspberry’ in my journal. That will be fixed when the page has been finished with the addition of the last print. I still wish paper journals had spell check not because I am lazy, but because my spelling is far from perfect. Also, that is purple ink on the border of my instant photo. My fountain pen barfed tonight. I am eternally grateful that my mom taught me that rubbing alcohol gets ink off of things.)
Raspberries!! Taken with a Hasselblad 501c/m using a Polaroid back and expired Polaroid Silk 125 peel apart film.
Journal page July 3rd.